leaning in

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When things shift you have to learn how to navigate the new normal.  What was once your daily routine has changed and the steady ground you were on is no longer steady.  This shift is uncomfortable because you do not know where the next step is.  But you pick yourself up and you go after this unknown terrain with a wide open heart.  Because you know that above all else you have to follow your heart.  You have to show up.  You have to keep stepping forward.  

And that is exactly what you do.  Even when it feels scary.  You lean in.  You get quiet.  You listen to that inner voice that has been calling for so long.  You do not let this moment pass you by.  You embrace the uncertainty and take it as an opportunity and a chance to unpack your inner dreams.  

Because it is time to do what your heart is calling!

stand in your light


Because deep inside of you is this light that will never dim
It is the fire of your spirit
It burns bright
Even when you are taken off course
Even when you fall to your knees
Even when you aren't sure where you are going
Your light shines
It is a beacon guiding you home
Showing you the next right step
It helps you to see that you are stronger than you ever thought
Yes, this light is your guide
You need to trust it
Believe in it
Lean deeply into it
Allow this light to teach you what you need to learn
Be brave in the chances you take
Know that you have what you need inside you
You can make it happen

beginning anew in march

March tarot card

I could make the drive to and from work with my eyes closed.  I have been going the same way for ten years.  These roads which were once unfamiliar and unknown have now become a part of my DNA.  I remember when I arrived that first day.  Unsure of where to park, feeling deeply the jitters of the unknown as I stepped into a world I was completely unfamiliar with. Never did I imagine what I would learn within these four walls or the way I would grow and expand.  I didn't expect to unearth friendships, take an unexpected trip, get my heart broken, laugh deeply, strengthen my voice, fill my heart with memories.  

What was began as a temporary job evolved into finding my way to marketing.  I never thought I would end up here, but then again I never really knew where I was going.  I tend to follow my heart and take a chance.  I am grateful for the way these walls have held me gently, encouraged me to step forward, and given me financial security to enjoy the the moments of my days.  

Yet, there has been a constant tug inside my heart nudging me to step into my light and do the work I am meant to do in this world.  The biggest challenge has been that I am unsure what exactly that looks like.  What I know for certain is:

  • I am called to being in service to others
  • I have a strong desire to guide individuals in opening up to their heart to the page and experiencing the healing powers of their own written word
  • I want to encourage others to move their bodies and tend to their minds
  • I crave work that builds confidence in others
  • I understand the importance of deep self care and want to encourage others to nourish their hearts and souls
  • I want to invite people to experience the healing powers of nature
  • And I want to do all of this with a heart wide open with love

Because how we show up in the world matters.  And when we feel called to do something we have to listen to the universe and simply go after it.  I don't know what shape or form it is going to take but I know that I need to get quiet and listen.  I need to give myself breathing room to figure it out.  I need to remember that it doesn't have to be so hard.  

March is the month of the bear for me which means waking from spiritual slumber / beginning anew.  This card could not be more perfectly timed as I feel the stirring inside my heart getting stronger and this familiar ground I have been traveling on is starting to feel very unfamiliar.  

It is time for me to wake from my slumber and move towards the light that is burning inside my heart.  It is time to transform.  It is time to begin.    

I have been known to do things in life in a non traditional way.  I follow my heart.  Put one foot in front of the other and simply see what happens.  I do not worry to much about the what if's.  I take the chance.  This hasn't always worked out in my favor but one thing is for certain; I have learned so much along the way and have grown into who I am today.  I wouldn't have it any other way.  

As I stand on the edge of this horizon I know I need to leap and give myself space to figure it out.  I cannot delay a single second longer.  Life passes by in the blink of an eye and it is time for me to shine.  I need to step forward and carve my own path.  My journey is just beginning.

How are you meant to shine your light in this world?   

what work are you meant to do in this world?

Never doubt that a small group of thoughtful, committed, citizens can change the world. Indeed, it is the only thing that ever has.
— Margaret Mead

For as long as I can remember there has been one constant question that I have asked myself.  A question I still have yet to find the answer to.  But one I am unwilling to give up on.   

What work am I meant to do in this world?

I want to do something bigger than me.  I want to leave this world better than I found it.  I want to inspire people to reach a little further.  I want to encourage people to show up with kindness.  I want to share my heart with others and invite them to do the same.  

I want to make a difference.  

I have always questioned what my purpose is.  I have always wondered how am I meant to show up.  I feel it in my bones that I am not meant to live small.  There is work inside me that I need to share.  

I have not yet discover what this truly looks like, but there are some things I know for sure.  

  • My words heal
  • My patience allows others space to open up
  • My quiet disposition is a gift 

I believe in the power of kindness.  I know that we all need a little bit of inspiration to push us further throughout our days.  We are not meant to go about this alone.  Together we can do so much more.  I know that we need community and connection.  We all just want to be seen and heard.  

And so I show up, day after day trying to unearth what it is I am meant to do in this world.  I refuse to give up on my work.  I will keep putting one foot in front of the other until I unearth my path.  

What about you?  What work are you meant to do in this world?  How do you choose to show up?  What mark are you hoping to leave?

As I unearth my path I know it is important to gather with other like minded souls.  The inspiration that is sparked when we are together is beyond anything that can happen alone.  So I invite you to meet & mingle and get to know other local creatives.  

stepping into february


In the beginning of the year I choose a full spread of tarot cards, each card representing a different month.  It has given me an opportunity to slow down and be in the moment more often. 

February is the month of the fish.  

With this comes challenges as the fish is in constant movement on unsure terrain.  There is the ability to get lost in this roaming lifestyle, and not having clear goals can push me in many different directions.  Knowing that the fish is guiding me this month I will need to find peace, set small goals, and accomplish them.  I will have to be adaptable and turn to the moonlight to ground me.  

Even just being a few days into February I can see how this month will be filled with movement and unsteady terrain.  At work things are in constant motion and I need to be flexible and not allow the unsteadiness to shake me.  There is only so much I can control.  I must focus in on what I can can do and not allow what is out of my hands to bring me down.  

At home the ground beneath me is ever changing.  I am unsure what my future will hold but one thing I do know is that I need to follow my heart and push through.  I need to do what makes me truly happy.  There are so many dreams that have been living and breathing inside me.  It is time to bring them to life. 

Movement can be good.  It takes us from one phase of life to another.  We aren't always ready for the changing shifting tides, but sometimes we need to be shaken to our core to open up our eyes and see that we will be ok ... even if we aren't sure where we are.  I invite you to embrace the movement in your life.  To be fluid with it and see where it takes you. 

You may think you are destine for one place and then you end up somewhere entirely different.  Don't write off the different surroundings right away. Give them a chance to show you what they are made of. They may surprise you. 

my mother taught me

my mother taught me

I remember the day my mom dropped me off at college.  It was only thirty minutes from my home yet I would be living on campus and life as we both knew it was changing forever.  Her little girl was growing up and would no longer be sleeping in her bedroom right down the hall each night.  

As I walked through the arches on campus I tucked into my heart all the lessons my mom had taught me growing up.  At the time she bestowed these lessons onto me I didn't appreciate them.  But as I entered this vast unknown territory I had a feeling I would be leaning deeply on all that she embedded into my heart.   

Sharing is Caring

This was one of her favorites.  She said it often and always reminded us of it when we forgot.    There were times she didn't even have to tell us because she showed us.  Like when she shared a bit of her sandwich if we were hungry.  Or gave us the towel to dry off first if we only had one after swimming in the ocean.  Letting us pull up the crab lines to check if something took hold.  Taking us to the park when what she really wanted to do was stay home and nap. 

Family Comes First

What mattered most to my mom was family.  When she was with her family her face would light up.  But mother/daughter relationships aren't always easy and there were years my mom and I struggled.  Through it all she never stopped showing me how much she cared and that family is always there.  On our birthday's she would have us over for our favorite meal which she would cook and you could see what joy it brought her to have us all gathered together.  

It's the Simple Things in Life that Matter Most

My mom never went on fancy vacations or cared for the most expensive and extravagant things.  What mattered most to her was time together, a memory made, laughter, family trips.  She enjoyed arts and craft and creating things.  She gave gifts from the heart and knew that it was the moments together that made up a beautiful life. 

Take Care of One Another

I remember when I lived on my own and I wasn't feeling great.  Nothing crazy, just a cold that knocked me down for the count.  My mom showed up at my door with medicine and warm soup.  She tucked me into bed, made sure I had everything I needed, and took care of me the only way a mom could.  Yet she didn't do that for just me.  She took care of everyone around her.  From watching after her friends kids while they went to work to caring for a friend who was dying of cancer.  She showed up.  She picked up tissues strewn all of the floor.  She made sure you were comfortable and she cared deeply.  

There are many other lessons tucked into my heart from my mom.  Lessons I will never forget and follow day after day.  It is because her that I am as strong, as brave, and as kind as I am.  She taught me to work hard, follow through, and not quit until it's done.  She taught me to love deeply, reach out, and invite others in.  She also taught me to not take life to seriously; to laugh at the corniest of things and appreciate the feeling of sand between my toes.  

My mom taught me so much, but most of all she taught me to be proud of who I am.  Some days this lesson is harder to remember than others.  But I do know that I am always growing, always learning, and always becoming.  And even though my mom isn't here to see it; I know she is still cheering me on.   

What lessons has your mother taught you?

three things I need you to know


Deep in your heart there are truths that you know.  You learned them from your experiences.  Many have been unearthed through your struggles.  Others have come to you in your joy.  And still there are some that you have learned through your day to day living.  You cannot deny these truths but sometimes you need to be reminded of them.  

In the Love Notes Postcard Project this week I asked the participants to share with their partner three things they need there partner to know.  Three truths that are living and breathing in their own hearts.  Yes, there are many more than three but what three would you share?  

Three things I need you to know is:

1 - You can do hard things.  Yes, you can.  It will not always feel comfortable and there will be many times you will want to throw in the towel and just walk away.  But it is through this discomfort that you grow and unearth strength and wisdom.  You learn deeply from these challenges and you emerge stronger, braver, and wiser than you were before.  The hard moments become a badge of honor.  A measuring stick for what you are capable of.  And you will rise up again and again and again.  Because YOU, yes you, can do had things. 

2 - You are not meant to travel through this journey alone.  When you open up your heart, share your stories, and invite others in you unearth your tribe.  You find those individuals who cheer you on, stand beside through the good and the bad, and want to see you flourish and grow.  Together you do amazing things!  It is human nature to want to feel connection with another.  But this only happens when you let down your own wall and share yourself.  You find joy in these connections and together you travel through each journey.  

3 - Having a practice of gratitude helps you unearth the beauty and joy you have in your life.  When you take a moment each day to give thanks for even the smallest of things you invite more joy and love into your life.  Your heart softens and see how even a smile from a stranger can mean everything. When you practice gratitude you become more aware of the little moments that make up your day and see how divine they are.  Gratitude helps center you and encourages you to not walk through this life blindly, but rather take care of the moments and appreciate them. 

What three things do you know?  Share them in the comments below because we learn so much from each other.  

Because we aren't meant to travel alone

I invite you to gather with me.  To show up as you are and share a piece of your heart.  I promise to be sharing a piece of mine as well.  Let's spend an afternoon of creative connection together.  If this sounds even a little bit intriguing to you click below to sign up to receive the invitation.  I hope that you will join me.  It would be wonderful to meet face to face.  

the importance of community


I have learned that we aren't meant to travel this journey by ourselves.  When we come together we can do so much more than we ever can on our own.  

There is magic in community.  
There is magic in gathering.  
There is magic in opening up your heart and sharing it.  

I am an introvert.  When I step into a group I struggle.  I seek out the back of the room so I can quietly observe.  I soak it all in from a distance but always leave wishing I had gotten a little bit closer.  I long to dive in deep but struggle to do so.  

I have learned that I must step forward.  I do not need to wait for an invitation to find my way into the circle. I just need to drop my insecurities and step in.  It is not an easy thing to do, but it is so rewarding when I do it.  

It is connection that pushes me to dive a little bit deeper.  
It is connection that expands my horizon.  
It is connection that helps me grow.

But connection only happens when I let down my guard and step into the circle.  I have to be willing to not only listen, but to also share my own stories of heartbreak and triumph.  I have to not only reach out, but also reach in.  I have to be able to not only catch others stories but also be vulnerable enough to share my own.

gathering around a table

I learned how deeply I longed for connection when I attended my first art retreat.  Quite and shy I found a way to blend into the background, yet I left there broken open.  I knew that I could no longer live closed off.  I had to reach out and invite others in.  I had to show up to the table.  

I have found my most meaningful connections unearth when I am surrounded by people who have similar interest as I do.  It is in these spaces that it is easier to dive in deep and share my heart.  I feel a sense of trust and connection because we have that common bond between us.  

The vastness of the internet makes it easy for us to stay in touch, but there is still something beautiful and magical about gathering together in person.  Looking into each others eyes, reaching out and holding hands, being together in the same room.  This is a precious gift.

Being an introvert I can allow long amounts of time to pass by without reaching out to gather.  It feels like work sometimes to make the effort.  But once I am with my people it all feels right and I never regret stepping into the circle.  

This year I am committing to spending more time with others.  To stepping out of my comfort zone and inviting my kindred's in.  I want to break down the wall I have built up and connect deeply.  I know the only way this will manifest is if I show up and share pieces of my heart with others.  

So I invite you to gather with me.  To show up as you are and share a piece of your heart.  I promise to be sharing a piece of mine as well.  Let's spend an afternoon of creative connection together.  If this sounds even a little bit intriguing to you click below to sign up to receive the invitation.  I hope that you will join me.  It would be wonderful to meet face to face.  

love notes postcard projects begins


As you step into 2018 carry LOVE with you.  And know that it is love that opens others up.  Because love makes the world go round.  And when you show up and share your heart you encourage others to do the same.  Love, love, love.  Bring love into everything you do. 

Another round of Love Notes began this week and I couldn't be more excited.  It is the 22nd time I am hosting this three week project and still cannot believe how it has all unfolded since the very first round.  Love Notes encourages people to get back to basics and send a bit of snail mail love.  When is the last time you reached out to someone through the mail rather than a quick text or like on social media.  

The first prompt for this round is:  

As you step into 2018 carry ... {one word} ... with you
And know ...
Because ...

What word would you encourage others to carry around with them?

because snail mail still matters

love notes

When is the last time you sat down and wrote someone a letter?  The last time you were excited to go to your mailbox and see what was waiting inside {and no, not because a package from amazon was waiting for you}.  The last time you took a moment to connect with someone through the written word?  

Today we rely on instant connection.  A text message here, a check in on social media, a tweet, a like, a comment, maybe even an email.  It is quick and fleeting.  I love that we have the ability to connect with one another instantly.  It is like a little piece of magic in the palm of your hands.  

But what if you slowed down for a moment.  Took some time to write a note to a friend on a blank piece of paper.  Then dropped that note into the mailbox and gave it some more time to reach them.  How do you think your friend would feel when they opened up their mailbox and saw a very special surprise just from you.  

It is incredible how one letter can change someones day.  

A few years ago I created the Love Notes Postcard Project.  A simple three week project centered around connecting with individuals through snail mail.  In this digital age I had no idea if people would be interested, but it was something I was craving and so I knew I had to put it out into the world.  

What emerged from this small idea was an incredible community of individuals connecting through the written word sent through the mail. 

Strangers writing to one another.
Strangers opening up their heart and sharing a piece of their world with each other.
Strangers connecting.
Strangers reaching out to others who needed a little extra TLC.
Strangers no longer strangers, but friends.

It is the power of the written word that has brought these individuals together. Their hearts are as wide as the ocean.  Their courage to take a chance is immense.  There desire to lift others up with no expectation of anything in return is incredible.  They are a community of Love Notes senders.  It was the lure of the written word that brought them together, but it was their willingness to open up and connect that has made them friends.  

I never in my wildest dreams imagined such a divine and loving community forming out of the Love Notes Project.  Each time I visit the facebook group my heart overflows with gratitude and love.  It is these individuals who make the project possible and it is their divine kindness that forms deep meaningful connections. 

The project is simple.

3 weeks + 3 writing prompts = 3 postcards sent and received

Individuals from around the world have participated including the United Kingdom, Ireland, Spain, France, Canada, Japan, Sweden, Finland, Germany, and more.  There have been places I had to look up because I wasn't even sure where they were on the map.  

In a world filled with uncertainty this project reinforces that there is still good in the world.  There are kind and loving individuals reaching out a hand.  We stand together, sharing our hearts, sharing our stories, sharing hope.  

What may be simple words to you could be the exact words someone else needs to hear.  What you write could change someones day or bring a smile to their face.  Your postcard is a little piece of fairy magic.  You may never know the effect is has on others along it's journey and when it arrives at it's final destination, but that is part of the wonder.

I am excited for the very next round of Love Notes starting on Sunday, January 14th.  There is still time for you to join us if you are interested.  There is no requirement to be creative or an exceptional writer.  The prompts are simple and the writing space on a postcard is short and sweet.  Store bought postcards work perfectly.  And if you don't have a postcard a note card works as well.  In fact any piece of paper you can drop in the mail is perfect.  

I invite you to come back to the basics and join us for three weeks of snail mail fun. 

mondo beyondo


There are dreams living and breathing in your heart and they matter.  Some of them have never been spoken and some may even surprise you.  What you dream about is important and these dreams need to be spoken out loud.  It is in the act of writing them down that you breath life into them and give them an opportunity to bloom. 

For the past many years I have been following Andrea Scher's lead and writing my yearly Mondo Beyondo list.  This is a list of everything I dream and desire.  There are no rules to what can go down on the paper.  It is an opportunity to let go and dream big.  The way it works is you set a timer for ten minutes and begin to put all your dreams down.  You don't let the pen stop until the time goes off.  There is no judgement to what comes up just space to put it down.  

It is incredible to look back on my list and see some of the things I wrote down that I forgot about and how they have come true.  Things when I wrote them I couldn't imagine ever happening.  But that is the power of manifestation.  When we write it down we begin to put it into motion and once it is in motion it is has the power to come true.  

I encourage you to set aside ten minutes with your journal.  Light a candle.  Say a prayer to being open. Then let your heart spill onto the page all that it desires.  Show up with out judgment and see what you unearth.  You may be surprised. 

2018 Mondo Beyondo List

  • Coach people on the power of writing and using it as a daily tool
  • Travel to Ireland
  • Ride my bike across country
  • Be better with my money
  • Move my body daily
  • Nourish my soul
  • Hold hands and be close to the one I love
  • Spend time with my family
  • Laughter, lots and lots of laughter
  • Own a house at the beach
  • Teach yoga and meditation
  • Teach writing workshops
  • Host yearly writing and movement retreats
  • Have a job that fills my soul and makes me enough money to not have to worry
  • Live in a community where I can ride my bike around town
  • Create my own inspiration deck
  • Be deeply connected to those around me
  • Have the ability to express how I feel without hesitation but also with kindness
  • Love deeply and go on many adventures with the one I adore
  • Run another marathon
  • Gather with women and connect through honest and open conversation
  • Have gatherings of individuals from Love Notes
  • Give a Ted Talk
  • Bring Love Notes on the Ellen show
  • Sit down with Oprah and be on Super Soul Sunday
  • Travel the world giving talks that inspire and move individuals to live their best life
  • Get paid to share my writing
  • Travel often with the one I love
  • Be present in the everyday moments
  • Cook more often
  • Slow down and savor the moments and the people I am with
  • Share my heart with those worthy of sharing it with
  • Inspire people with my words
  • Have a deeply connected relationship with the one I love filled with mutual respect, kindness, space, and intimacy
  • Continually grow and develop

What is on our list?  Whisper your dream out loud to help unearth it coming true.  


Need a little extra love in your mailbox.  Join me for the next round of Love Notes staring January 14th.  

word of the year

Your mind shines brightest when you enlighten others; your heart, when you encourage others; your soul, when you elevate others; and your life, when you empower others.
— Matshona Dhliwayo

Since 2009 I have had the tradition of choosing one word to tuck into my pocket for the entire year.  A word that is calling to me.  One I want to manifest and dive into.  I never know how it is going to unfold but it usually brings me exactly what I need, even if it is not what I expected.  

As I was journaling my way through the end of the year my word emerged.  I know that NOW is the time for me to step into the work I am meant to do in the world.  I have deep creative dreams brewing and this is the year to make them happen.  

My word for 2018 is:


   * to move or raise to a higher place or position; lift up
   * to raise to a higher state, rank, or office; exalt; promote
   * to raise to a higher intellectual or spiritual level
   * to raise the spirits; put in high spirits
   * to raise (the voice) in pitch or volume

I want to elevate those around me.  Be a guide in my community and help others unearth the brilliant light inside them. I want to choose joy and be aware of the energy I carry with me.  Raising my own spirit and carrying kindness into every interaction.  I want to radiate my own light and not be fearful of how bright it can shine.  I also want to raise my voice and allow myself space to be heard.  

In 2011 I made a piece of art with my word and it still hangs on my wall today.  It was powerful to do it and was the year that my word manifested itself in the most brilliant and unexpected manner.  It was as if taking the time to create something I could see every day helped proclaim to the universe how serious I was about this word.  This week I am going to be working on a piece of art for elevate.  Something that will inspire me each day to live with this word in my heart.  

Do you choose a word or intention for the year?  Would love to hear what it is.  

My previous words have been:

2017 - Expand
2016 - Daring Greatly & Gather
2015 - Connection
2014 – Build
2013 – All the Cards on the Table
2012 – Soar
2011 – Love
2010 – Connect
2009 - Wings

2017 Inventory


As 2017 is coming to a close I have been digging in, looking back and seeing what was.  It is amazing what surfaces when we take the time to slow down, see how far we have come, and look at what we made it through. 

This past year has been filled with a lot of up's and downs like all years have.  I wouldn't rank it as being one of my favorites.  I carry with me a whole set of battle scars.  It wasn't a stellar year but I definitely learned a lot. 

Below is an exercise I like doing at the end of every year.  A year end inventory of sorts.  It is a great way to reflect.  

>> 2017 felt like a blur.  I don't even know what happened and feel like I wasn't present.  In this moment I see how deeply I need to spend time with my notebook.  It is in that sacred space that I allow myself to open up.
>> I did to much of not being present and blindly moving through each day without feeling. 
>> I did to little of sharing my heart and speaking how I felt.  
>> I never should have stopped paying attention and thinking I was invincible.  
>> I am glad I got rocked to my core because it has woken me up and made me see how I need to be more present.
>> I learned that life can throw you curveballs and try to teach you lessons.  But it is only when you are truly ready do you learn them.  And then sometimes you even forget them. 
>> My biggest adventures were our August road trip to Maine and finding my way to the first marathon viewing stop all on my own.
>> My most romantic moment was walking hand in hand with him underneath the glow of the moonlight.
>> I celebrated choosing to show up at "She Recovers" and boldly allowing myself to know that there is something I need to recover from.
>> I never expected to be single.
>> I was unable to find my confidence in teaching yoga and never took the leap to try to find a teaching position.
>> I can't believe that I am so terrible with money.  That needs to change in 2018.
>> I became closer with some friends and family due to heartbreak and I want to continue to nurture those relationships.
>> I let go of my voice and I need to stand tall in it.
>> I loved being with my nieces and nephews.  Receiving a hug from them made my day that much better.  
>> The major life change that occurred was shifting to being single and living alone.
>> If I had to sum up 2017 in one sentence it would be:  What the heck happened?
>> 2017 Theme Song: Waiting For My Real Life to Begin by Colin Hay

What does your 2017 inventory look and feel like?

in this moment

in this moment

In this moment I know that I am so much stronger than I ever have given myself credit for
In this moment  my heart is broken, but it won't be broken forever
In this moment I know that I need to get back to moving my body
In this moment the page is calling and now is the time to begin writing my book
In this moment I know that I have an amazing support system that I am beyond grateful for
In this moment I have a safe space to land
In this moment I know that I must choose love, always
In this moment I have to be tender with myself
In this moment I know that I must allow space to heal
In this moment I cannot forget about laughter and joy
In this moment I know that there is so much goodness
In this moment I must lean in, open up, and share my voice
In this moment I know that I will never get back today so I must choose to live it

Where are you, in this moment?

{In this moment ... is a prompt from my free Heart Notes class that I am closing out the year with}

turning heart break into heart opening

heart break

Two years ago my mom passed.  It all happened so quickly and was very unexpected.  Since that moment I have been in a dark place.  It wasn't until recently that I realized how deeply I have fallen into this darkness.  So deep that I have lost my way.  

In this moment my heart has been shattered into a million pieces and can see for the first time how that darkness has taken over me.  You would think with the passing of my mom that I would learn to appreciate every day, that I would understand how life is short, and we never know when it is going to end.  But rather than appreciate the moments I was consumed with all the things she would be missing.  So consumed that I began to miss the little moments that were happening in my day to day life and I began to take this life I am living for granted.  Things began to slip away as I dug myself deeper and deeper into my hole.   

But as I stand here now with my heart broken I see how precious life truly is.  How we never know what is going to happen next.  We can think we have it all planned out and then a curve ball is thrown our way and everything changes in an instant.  

My heart break has lead to a heart opening.  As I have been navigating this new direction and trying to find my way in this new world I am unsure of where I am going or how I am going to get there.  But one thing I do know for certain is that I cannot waste this time.  I can't live in the sadness of what I have lost.  I can't be afraid of what my future holds.  I have to be grateful for all that was and be ok with what can no longer be.  

With my heart wide open I am inviting others in.  Letting them see the pieces of me that I have kept safely tucked away for far to long.  I am showing up and sharing who I am and how I feel.  I am choosing to break through the wall that I have been hiding behind for far to long.  

My life isn't perfect.  There are things I need to work on.  I have my highs and lows.  But we as human beings all have these things.  It is once we start unearthing these layers that we begin to see we are more alike than we are different.  We begin to learn that we are never truly alone in this world.  There are people who are willing to reach out, grab your hand, and pick you up when you feel you cannot do it yourself.  There are people willing to listen to your heartbreak, give you a hug, and let you know that they are here for you.  

And so I step forward into this new life.  The one I didn't think I would be living in.  This unknown territory.  I am unsure what the future holds for me.  But I trust that it will be beautiful, filled with love, grace, gratitude, and kindness.  I believe wholeheartedly that what you put out into the world comes back to you.  And so I am putting out love, lots of love.  

I am also opening up my heart and sharing my voice.  Because life truly is to short for us to not to.  And even though it is not always easy living with a protective wall up is so much harder than living with your heart wide open.  

And so this heartbreak has lead to a heart opening and for that I am eternally grateful.

share your heart

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The world will open up to you, when you open up to it.  It takes courage to speak from the heart.  It takes strength to share your story.  But it is needed in this world.  Yes, it is!  What you have to say matters.  The stories you hold, the love you share, the way you show up ... all of it matters.  

It has taken me time to learn these lessons.  A lot more time than I care to admit.  I can put pen to paper easily.   But ask me to speak these words and I struggle.  Afraid of what others will think if I open my heart.  Afraid of judgment.  Afraid of not being understood.  

Yet I have recently stood in the face of fear.  Showing up exactly as I am.  And I was embraced and held.  I was seen.  I brought something to the table and showed up so much stronger than  I ever thought I was.  I never thought I was the one brining something to the table, but I am.  And you are to!  

You, exactly as you are is a gift to this world.  What you share with those around you is important.  You must continue to show up.  You bring a unique perspective.  When you share your stories you encourage others to share as well.  Do not be fearful of showing others who you are.  It is necessary and so very needed.  

I have struggled for far to long with showing up in this world.  Thinking I was meant to be invisible.  But no one is ever meant to not be seen.  Know this and feel it deeply inside you.  I see now how my thoughts, feelings, and opinions matter.  I see how I have a way of teaching others just by being me.  This my friends, is powerful.  When we understand that our presence alone effects those around us we show up in the world with much more intention.  We do not take for granted the time we have and we respect the energy we give out.  

When you walk into a room you bring a certain energy with you.  Others feel this and it effect their energy as well.  What do you want others to feel from you?  How do you want to show up?  

I encourage you to examine the way you show up in the world.  To notice the energy you carry with you when you enter your home or office.  See how this energy effects those around you.  Be conscious of the strength your energy holds.  See how you can shift it into a positive feeling.  

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you are a divine human being


Take time to give thanks for who you are
And all you have created in your life
You are stronger than you realize
Braver than you know
And perfect the way you are
You bring a unique gift to this world that no one else has
Know this
And stand in your own light
Continue to reach for your dreams
Celebrate your successes
And push yourself to keep on growing
Give thanks for everything that surrounds you
And know that you have the power to create your own destiny
Trust your path
Even when it doesn't seem clear
Or feel like the direction you should be traveling
Believe in yourself
You are a divine human being
Never forget this

braving the darkness blues


Here on the east coast we have fallen behind with the clock.  We gained an hour of sleep but I feel as if I have lost my way.  The time change in the fall is always hard for me.  I know the cold is coming and leaving work in the dark fills me with the blues.  All I want to do is  curl up in bed.  It is this time of year I know I need to push myself harder than I usually do to stay active and motivated. 

There is much beauty in the world.  The leaves change to vibrate yellows and reds.  The sunset lights up the sky.  The morning darkness provides a moment of quiet reflection as I ease into the day.  Even through the cold I need to push myself out the door.  Fresh air fills my lungs with hope and wakes me up to the world.  

I know that this is a hard time for me and so I need to lean in deep and ask for help from others.  I need to let them know when I am struggling and not allow myself to fall down the rabbit hole.  When I talk about it I feel much better and it doesn't feel so hard.  I need to be more vocal.  

It has ben a while since I have spent hours in the coffee shop writing.  The fall and winter months are the perfect time for me to get back to this.  I miss those moments of collective togetherness hand in hand with solitude.  It is time for me to get back to the page and spill open.  Maybe, just maybe the book that is living and breathing inside me will begin to take shape.  

It is time for me to embrace this darkness.  To give it space to breathe inside me.  For when we stand in the darkness the light becomes that much more beautiful.  One of the reasons I love living in NJ is I get to experience all four of the seasons.  It brings an opportunity for me to reflect as I shift into the change in the weather.   

And so we begin, another shift.  Another moment to begin again.  

How do you handle these transitions?  Do you have any tools in your toolbox that help get you through?  Together let's brave the blues.

moving beyond

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Making your way through this journey called life can feel hard at times.  There are moments of pure joy and elation and other times when you feel as if you cannot pick yourself up the floor.  And then there are those moments when you are floating in the space between.  Blindly going through life.  Moving from one thing to the next without truly feeling or experiencing it.  

How do we move deeper into the moment?

Each day I wake up and follow my morning routine.  I drive the same way to work.  Go in and out of the same doors.  See the same people and have similar conversations.  Every Monday we ask what the other has done over the weekend.  Every Friday we talk about what we are going to do with our time away from the office.  I eat a lot of the same meals.  Go to bed around the same time.  

I feel as if I am living my life on autopilot.  

How can I break this cycle?  Do I need a monumental change or can small things shake it up?  I want to feel this life more deeply.  Be present in the moment and take in experiences and interactions I am having.  I do not want to just have a conversation with you about the weather.  I want to get to know you more deeply and I also want you to get to know me.  

We have to be willing to show up and share our stories.  Letting your guard down invites others in.  When you show up and allow yourself to be seen you give others the permission to do the same.  This is where connection blooms.  This is what takes us off autopilot.  

You don't have to move to a new place to experience new things.  You my just have to take a new route home.  There is a world out there right around your block that you have never experienced.  Go ahead and explore it.  What is there might change you.  You never know until you give it at try.

We get comfortable in life.  We know what to expect.  We know where to go.  But in order to grow and develop we have to move past that comfort.  We have to do something that scares us.  It is going beyond this fear that forever changes us.  

What one thing can you do today to take you out of your routine.  To push you to connect with someone new, nature, yourself?  How can you challenge yourself to go beyond?  

This is your one wild and precious life. Live it wide open.  Explore.  Grow.  Expand. 

it's more than the marathon

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The NYC Marathon holds a special place in my heart for so many reasons.  There is a history with my family that I am forever grateful for.  It started long before I showed up to the starting line.  In fact it started with my aunt and uncle, years ago, and the tradition has carried on. 

I am grateful for all the marathon has brought me:

  • Connection with my family
  • Inspiration to push myself further than I ever thought I could
  • Electric energy running through me -- as a spectator and a runner
  • Feeling like NYC was my city
  • Pride for humanity and watching people come together
  • Watching all walks of life making it happen
  • Learning that I am so much stronger than I ever thought I was
  • Meeting like minded souls
  • Hours on the road
  • Cheers from strangers
  • A freedom that I never felt before
  • Pushing through really hard times
  • Watching the sunrise
  • Feeling that first rush of cold air hit my lungs
  • Running together
  • Running alone
  • Hearing the cheers from family and friends
  • One foot in front of the other
  • The feeling of pure joy and elation crossing the finish line

This list could go on and on.  The marathon has brought more to my life than I ever have imagined.  I am grateful for the strength in my legs, carrying me through not only 26.2 miles but the endless amount of training.  I am grateful for the hills I struggled up for they made me stronger.  I am grateful for my courage to say yes.  And grateful for everyone who supported me along the way.  

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The marathon is a solo journey.  For it is only you who puts one foot in front of the other and crosses the finish line.  Yet, you are never ever alone and you can't go at it by yourself.  You need the support of those around you to push you when you feel like you don't have the strength to go on.  I am grateful for that support.  

Live big.  Go after your dreams.  Know you can do anything you put your mind to.  I never thought I would or could run a marathon.  And yet I did.  One foot in front of the other.  One step at a time.  And somehow it all comes together and happens.