It seems as if there are very few places

Where I am showing up lately

My physical body is there

But my mind is off


Not able to make one complete thought

Finding it impossible

To engage in conversation

Concentrate on what I am doing

Listen to what others are saying

There are very few places

Where I am feeling like myself



Present in the moment

I have been holding back

Building up this wall around me

Censoring my words

Pushing feelings and thoughts aside

In the brief moments that I have been feeling myself

I have been having deep conversations

Over a shared meal

Spilling out contents of my heart onto the table

With a kind soul sitting across from me

Telling me not what I want to hear

But what is true in this world

I feel like I am falling into darkness

Unsure of how to pull myself out