On my past few runs I have ventured off without my watch. I would love to say that I choose to do it to see if I could trust my intuition, but in reality the battery was dead and I did not have the time to wait for it to charge. So off I went.
I do not look at my watch that often when I run, but I enjoy checking in with it to see where I am. Sometimes it is frustrating because I feel great and the watch says I am running slower than I think. Other times it is the flip side and I am feeling terrible and the watch says I am doing awesome. I find it comforting on my long runs because it keeps me in check in the beginning and not running off to fast when I am in it for the long haul.
As the marathon inches closer I am doubting the technology that I have been using. Has it been telling me the correct miles? Has it been measuring my pace accurately? Am I really ready to take on this enormous adventure?
Excitement is filling me up yet at the same time bits of self doubt are creeping in. 26.2 miles! A feat I have never attempted before. Hours and hours of training have gone into this, but will that be enough?
I need to step back and realize that I have done all that I can. I have shown up time and time again, even on days when I didn't want to. I am ready. I have prepared. I will make it.
Sometimes it can be hard for us to believe in ourselves. We let those self doubt demons fill our head with their chatter. But I know that as I step up to the starting line that I have given it all I got. And as I pass my family and friends; hearing there cheers and seeing there smiles I will be infused with encouragement and gratitude to keep on going.
One foot in front of the other. Step by step I will get there. Just as I have gotten here today. I will make it across that finish line.