There are signs of her all around. They show up in the most unexpected places and make me smile. Even though she isn't here in person I can feel her everywhere. She is with me in everything I do.
She was a collector of feather's. A believer that they were from heaven. On the window ledge above her kitchen sink sat a blue jar that I never much paid attention to. It wasn't until after her passing that I noticed she had placed all of the feathers she had collected inside this jar.
A few years ago on an adventure together in Brooklyn she opened her heart and shared with me that she collects feathers. When she was younger her sister had passed and ever since her passing she had said that each time she saw one she knew it was a sign from the other side. A reminder that she was never alone.
I never knew this about my mom and it was touching to get this glimpse into her heart. But even then I didn't pay much attention to the blue jar on the ledge above her sink and let the story of the feathers slip away.
When my mom was close to the end I walked out of her house and there were feathers scattered on the back lawn. I went to take a closer look and noticed there were others on the front lawn. In fact the house was surrounded by feathers and to my surprise there were none to be found next door.
Was this a sign from heaven? Were they calling her up and letting us know that she would be ok?
The signs continue to show up and each time they do it warms my heart and makes me smile. I miss her more than words can describe, but seeing a feather makes me feel a little bit closer to her. They are a reminder that she is always near.
That little blue jar still sits on the windows ledge and another feather collector has been created. Each one he sees he picks up and adds to her. A reminder that we are all connected.